Friday, January 30, 2009

Usernames from the past

So when the internet first became popular and everyone created email addresses and AIM screen names they were all some sort of inspired representation of themselves. I even fell into the creative username trap; my first AIM screen name was prncssbubbles45 and my email was who knows if its still active, its probably just full of spam mail now or someone who sent me an email because I wrote it in their yearbook. But how can you blame a helpless 8th grader wanted to be a part of the social network that is the internet. I've noticed that it's not just young pups trying to find themselves in this world that have representative usernames, my dad also suffers from this form of self expression. or something like that is one of his emails. I'm not sure what makes people decide that they should have a "grown up" username; for me, it was applying for scholarships. I had this feigned image of myself in college and i felt that to complete the image, i needed to create a more sophisticated username. this was the beginning of It definitely got my point across, I wasn't some tinkerbell_girl that you were just throwing your money at, I was a responsible adult that deserved to get payed to go to school. Unfortunately, my email address had little affect on the money i received, which was pretty much nothing Since i focused on the impact of my email address rather than my application, might have also stunted my merit of getting any scholarships. I feel that I am still a better person for abandoning the tinkerbell_girl of the past and moving on to bigger and better things. Changing my email address has possibly been the best thing I've done for myself ever since i discovered that putting ranch dressing on anything amplifies the flavor ten fold. I do still hang on to that prncssbubbles45 character though in case i need to reminisce the summer of 2002 past.

Thursday, January 29, 2009

Stress in my life

I get very stressed out about really mundane and irrelevant things. Its very strange, and they usually only last for a very small amount of time, I don't get over it, it just ends fer example: getting things out of vending machines. I am utterly terrified to buy things in the event that I either type in the wrong code and get the wrong thing, or i type in the right code and STILL get the wrong thing. Its something that plagues me everytime I attempt to get anything from a vending machine, which is why i typically avoid them most of the time. I dont know where this fear has stemmed from because I dont recall ever getting the wrong thing, but the fact that they do have those terrible cheese crackers with peanut butter in the middle that have been in there for probalby months on end is terrifying on the off chance that I might have to be in possession of them and eat them because i counted out all my pennies to get them.

Something that also terrifies me, and I feel I have legitimate reason to fear is those visual word verification things. I always struggle with them on the internet. It's one of the hardest, most stressful things. The whole pick a password, and username... nothing, I'm pro. But the stupid verification thing i ALWAYS get either the "The characters you entered didn't match the word verification. Please try again." or "Enter the letters as they are shown in the image." messages! As if I didn't see the letters in the first place. Maybe the fact that I usually get them wrong adds to my stress. And I never know if I am going to get kicked off for trying too many times. Because of it I always debate whether to click the handicap button. I dont think that would be any better, and I feel like I shouldn't need to use it because I'm not really sure who it would be used for. The first thing that comes to mind would be blind people that can't see the letters to type so they verbalize them, but I'm not sure how a blind person would be able to use a computer in the first place. Maybe I should use the handicap button and I could feel much more confident in visual word verification abilities. Perhaps it would help me overcome my weakness as well. Maybe my world will open up if I'm not worrying about verifying everything.